As the water flows over my body
The warmth reminds me of your touch
But when I looked down
I saw it was boiling
But it doesn’t hurt I cannot feel the pain
The frozen whispers eat through my teeth
The pictures seem to come alive
As I focus my eyes
I open my heart to anything
Like he once had done
I squeeze my eyes like lemons
To dry the tears from my cheeks
But it doesn’t stop the water from flowing
My beauty is only but a winked grin
For what lies beneath is a horrifying grim
there's no way to live without that man
but some how I move on
his smiles from above me keep my heart from sinking
I look at him with disgust
But who am I to judge
I’m just like him
My eyes dilate
To focus on the symbols on the walls
But I cannot make them out
It seems like the are speaking in a different language to me
Urging me to scream
My eyes are blank staring objects
My body zooms between walls
And fallows with a silent scream
I push my arms toward the sky
My body feels weightless
Yet so heavy
As I push it out a little bit more
I want you here
I need you here
Without you my body feels empty
I fall back and say I’m just usually crazy
My eyes feel like they’ve been crying forever
My heart is scared
I can’t believe they spared his life
I want to take away their pain
They saved their bruised and bleeding heads
I’m never okay
The pain has dissipated within me
I try to feel real but the sins keep on catching up to me
I write perfectly even though I feel delayed
I fill in the lines
While my body leys
It feels like my body has fell asleep
Like I’ve been laying on it while dreaming
With pins and needles poking me
My lips feel like puffer fish
Filled with poisin
I want to fall asleep
To keep awake I sing a song in my head
My eyes feel swollen
My eyes feel heavy
It feels like they are growing cross eyed
I don’t want them to die
I don’t want them to hurt
I want to feel normal
I feel so happy I feel so free
Nothing can bring me down
My face has grown numb
My fingers have grown cold
My hands feel weightless
I want it to go away
I want to feel your presents
I want you to stay
I want to feel your love
But it’s useless now
It’s useless now
