I’m lost within the puddle my reflection got stained into. I need to find a presents that I know and feel I belong within. I feel like I haven’t accomplished any thing, in the short time I’ve been on this world, I feel like I should have already become some thing significant like I always become in my dreams. They feel so real, I reach out to some thing and they reach back. I feel more alive when I sleep then when I open my eyes and see the sun shine through the window in the morning.
As a tear slowly runs down my check; it feels like I’m so big compared to that little drop or salty water; But so small compared to the big salty sea I once thought I understood. I realize that my heart doesn’t even belong to myself, so with the logic I hold within my hand, I think, how can it belong to any body else? I cannot speak, I cannot weep. I am speechless and soundless, between breaths I try to squeeze out a sound, but the silence slowly consumes my mind and hypnotizes me into a meditation state, that I feel nothing could break it. As I stay frozen in my mind, I’m awaiting for the key to unlock the box which within leys my broken heart frozen in time awaiting for some thing to fix it. But time is running too fast, its gone too fast, its almost too late.
~ inspiration - "Complete Relinquish" by Utter Abandon
